This seem to be reaching out and pulling me in. When I had friends that would only chestize me and victimize me an envoirment where I couldn't breath. Instead a man that holding my neck down , pulling my hair out, wasting time on girls coming and going.
My mind was not working, I didn't know God was there , when it hurts to see a man kill my happiness, I didn't know God was there , when it took time for me to realize love was blind, I didn't know God was there.
Threw all the drinks and shot I took depression was not a word I recognized. Could you even see me crying and hurting did you care when you grabbed that $20 out my server book. All the while your child need diapers. Could you see my heart when my feet would swell for long hours of labor for that same $20.
Hard work pays off , mentally draining I admitted I did like when u said you wanted me and not her all the time. I love you and wanna be with you. For some reason that little church girl knew this was a fluke and my heart slowing dissed you.
My mind was not working, I didn't know God was there , when it hurts to see a man kill my happiness, I didn't know God was there , when it took time for me to realize love was blind, I didn't know God was there.
What you get is what you give change a mind set look for a light. You have a voice it's not over this is not it. Your child is crying it's on you But God is there prayers are answered God is there. He is whispering hoping you come home. God was there when they said your stupid for staying. God will always be there he doesn't come when you want him. He comes when you need him.
When your not in the will of God a lot of stuff is blury and you can't see . Read the Bible everyday and pray everyday God will reveal to you answered.